Update...

So I said earlier that I would give an update on the comforting thoughts that helped me through the other night. To be honest my first day here was miserable. I had a horrible experience with the flight over, I have no luggage, I was in a foreign country, and I was away from all the people I love the most. I wanted to cry, part of me wanted to come home even. But as I laid in bed Monday night I started thinking. Actually I don't think it was me who started thinking, it was more of God speaking to me. Why am I trying to bear this burden alone? Why am I trying to push through this on my own strength? Heck, if that's how I'm going to continue I'll be home in less than a week, giving up and going back. I absolutely love my family and friends and I feel very close to them. But right now I feel so far away and I hate that. I won't get to see these people for 4 months, talking through Skype is the closest I'll get. But that night it was like God was reaching out to me and telling me to give it all up. Give up those feelings and come to Him for hope and strength. I can't do this alone, I miss everyone too much. I'm not strong enough to do this on my own. I got out of bed and started talking to Lauren again online. It was kinda weird, but after I just let out everything I had been thinking about she said that that's exactly what she was going through earlier that night and that was exactly the conclusion she had come to. It's weird how God can comfort someone with certain thoughts then reaffirm all those things through another person, especially one in the same situation having the same thoughts. So we talked a little bit longer and decided that everything happens for a reason, and we're not going to be able to do this on our own. We need some help, but thankfully we already found that help, that source of strength and courage and hope to get through hard times like these. I will admit, there are still moments when I feel absolutely miserable and alone. I'm making friends and I already have one friend here with me, but I cannot help but miss the people back home whom I love. Part of me still wants to go back haha. But I think I'll stick it out here and see what else God can teach me through this experience...